Tonight was a night that will continually change me. A woman who I've practically known my whole life gave me some of the best advice I've ever received - even better than advice that my own mom has given me. In an array of lengthy paragraphs full of drunken nights and childish mistakes, I managed to pull out one sentence that will stick with me forever - "I was sixteen, drunk, and had no idea what I was doing or where I was going, I knew nothing."
After hearing those twenty something words flow out of her mouth like she had said them a million times before, I finally realized that I'm more like her than I've ever noticed. I never saw how similar we truly were, and as it hit me I found myself wishing that I could ask her more questions, gossip and gab with her about our mistakes and how similar we were - yet I stopped myself. With my mother in the chair beside me, listening to the woman just as closely as I was, I knew I couldn't act as interested as I truly was. It would hurt her inside to know I was so intrigued by this woman's life - even more so than I was in my own mother's.
So I kept my mouth shut, the questions building up a brick wall inside of me, brick by brick slowly but surely until the wall was too tall to build anymore. So I politely left my seat, and came up here, to my room, where I have quietly been piecing together my thoughts - and although I may never get to ask that woman about her journeys and mistakes, and revel in the thought of our similarities, I will get to know forever and ever as long as I live and breathe, that, someone out there in the world is the same as me.
And as little as she may know - that makes the biggest difference in my world.
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