Is It Wrong?

I'm currently talking to 3 different people. One I'm definitely getting somewhat serious with. The other 2 are just flings for now. Eric, is the one who I'm getting kind of serious with. He really likes me - and he is the one who some of my latest blog posts have been about. I do like him a lot, but I'm just not sure exactly where my feelings stand. For the past couple of nights we've been talking on the phone. Last night we talked for over an hour. Just hearing his voice for the first time in what has seemed like forever, sent shivers down my spine and put a smile on my face. I do miss seeing him everyday during school - and it's next to impossible to even see him now because I'm grounded (and I have been for the past month). It's definitely not an easy relationship to keep up. We're still trying though, to talk to each other everyday, and stay up to date with what is going on in each other's lives.

On the other hand, however, I'm talking to Sam. Sam is so sweet, he's funny, good-looking, and he loves hockey. I love hockey as well, so of course we have a lot to talk about with each other. I've mostly talked to him over text, we started talking about a month or so ago and I haven't been able to see too much of him because of the whole grounded situation. The only times I've really seen him is in school, and every time I have seen him we've talked for a minute or so or said the occasional "hello". I can definitely see me and Sam becoming a couple. I really do like him, his personality is amazing, he has a great sense of humor, he's basically everything I want in a guy. And the best is he's not too confident about himself and he will say exactly what's on his mind when he wants too - unlike Eric.

Finally, I'm talking to Connor. Connor and I started talking about a week or so ago, so we don't know each other that well, but I've heard of him before and I've seen him around a couple of times so we do know who each other are. Connor is really funny, athletic, sweet, intelligent, he's literally perfect. He has the most amazing green eyes I've ever seen on a guy. Eyes that just seem to pierce straight through you and go straight to your soul. He has the cutest freckles that create random trails of speckles over his nose and cheeks. He's simply gorgeous. Me and Connor have a lot in common as well - he loves to party, I love to party, and that definitely makes me like him even more. He'd e able to get me into a lot of parties, and I know right now I sound kinda like I'm using him for that, but not at all. Of course that does factor in, but I do like his personality. Unfortunately I have yet to talk to Connor in person, or to hang out with him. Which I am sure will happen soon. In fact, just today he asked me if I wanted to go the drive-in movie theater with him sometimes after I'm grounded. The one awkward part about that, is that Eric asked me to do the exact same thing.

Do I go to the drive-in theater with Eric and Connor? Or do I have to choose one? I can't risk having either find out we went on the same date.. but if I have to risk it to figure out who I like, then so be it. I'm just so torn between 3 guys. Me and Eric have even made a bucket list, talking about things we have to do before the summer is over, before he heads off for college back in Oregon in the fall. We've spent hours talking about going to the city, to Boston to see a patriots game, and even going to the beach for a day. Everything sounds so perfect, but something keeps holding me back from Eric. Maybe it's that he is so serious about everything, I don't know yet. Me and Sam haven't really talked too much about hanging out, a couple times we've talked about maybe grabbing dinner or a coffee but nothing too serious. I just hope that I can figure all of this out soon. I want to have a good summer - but I don't want to be committed to just one single person. So is it wrong to test-ride all 3? I guess I'll find out.